i just want to scream!!!

As I sit here waiting for the clock to strike 6, I feel like crying. I just had a bad day. Why does time fly so slow when I am not in the mood?

When I was in my previous company, my closest friend once told me that lunch is a special time to be with friends and just relax and talk about things other than work. It was at that moment that I felt I was part of a group. That was then.

Now, lunch is the time to alienate myself all the more. A time to just eat by myself and talk to noone. I was cool with it since i don’t really like talking to people whom I’m not friends with. However, when they talk out loud and say things which hit me, that is a different story. I have no other wish than to be invisible and vanish in this place. I feel so alone. It makes me miss my friends and ex-officemates. 

This workplace sucks! To make things even worse, the work sucks, too! I have no knowledge that they have been working on a certain project already. So why do they blame me if I was able to cover? Giving a sarcastic compliment makes me feel worse. Totally! No motivation to work even harder.

See, I’m done ranting about these things but it’s still not yet 6 o’clock. Fast forward please. Please!